Hey true believers,

i don't know if you guys are still reading this, but here I am at it again.

It has been a while, and much has happened, I will fill you in at a later date, and maybe we can all catch up.

I am writing here again because I miss my GF.
I hope she is reading this still, and pass by from time to time to check if there is a proverbial lightat my proverbial window.

I miss her very very much, and I want to talk to her again.
I want to say that I am very sorry, and I did not go through with the literal suicide as I thought I could.

I can't bear to be without her touch and her kiss, and her hugs.
I am most happy there.
I want her back so I am wiritng again because I want her to know this.

By no other star do I sail this ship
By no other breath that could give me life
She is my autumn and my spring
her absence is winter and her warmth is Summer
In her arms I can never grow old
In her arms I will never die.

Her name is sacrosanct
but I am blessed as she lets me whisper it
Her form is perfect
but I am gifted as she lets me touch it
Her soul is eternal
but I am inspired for she let me share it

I think I need to get a T-shirt that says : My GF rocks!

Thinking back, when other girls hoped that I hit on them,
I never did -- all these years -- she must know this right?

If that is not a small measure of my loyalty to her, I don't know what else to offer now.

Honey, If you are reading this,
can you please drop by?
I miss you and I love you lots

I did not mean to go away,
but life was too heavy,
and I don't want you to see me so banged-up like this.

I am trying to be okay now,
I am just worried about you, is all,
I wanna know that you are at least happy, and ok.

then, even if you don't come back,
i can die happy.

i miss you
i love you.